Where I'm At

Hey Everyone! =D

Oh my gosh. >< Where did May go?! As if it's almost June. >< In a way? I'm so excited, it means more sun and summer, and going to the beach! On the other hand? I'm still waist deep in wedding planning with a deadline staring me down. >< On another 'nother hand? (I have several, don't you worry =P) My wedding is coming up! Which, stressful though planning may be, can't help but be exciting. =) Currently I'm trying to muscle through the very difficult process of trying to find pew decorations and centerpieces that I like, and trying even harder to stick to the budget. >< (something I'm not proving to be very good at) but I know it'll work out in the end, as everything always does. =)

Other than that, I've been working a crazy amount lately. >< Being that I'm a university student, I'm not really used to going to work full time, so every summer I always get a little burnt out. =) But I'm getting used to it, and I'm happy that I get to pay down my student loan a bit before next year. =)

Also, I've really been trying to get back into writing books. =) I used to write pretty much every day all day, and I loved it! I knew, for a fact, that I wanted to become a published fiction author one day. =) *note: I'm under no delusion that I'll become rich and famous, it would just make me so happy!* So lately I've been reading books like "Bird by Bird, by Anne Lamott" (which was amazing!) and others like it to help me along my little way to hopefully write a book!

One thing that a lot of "How to Write" books and such like that mention a LOT is that if you're going to write, you must read. Which, may seem like a pretty simple conclusion to come to, but it just never came to me. =P I used to read. It was like, my only hobby other than writing. >< And then when I started University, it seemed like I didn't have time for frivolous things like that anymore... Well no more! I decided to grab a book off my shelf that I've been wanting to get to for a while, but just never quite got to it, and started reading. I was such a more pleasant person to be around. As it turns out, when you take a few minutes for yourself every now and again, and stop doing anything productive, and just relax? You can laugh about all the little things again. And appreciate how nice it is to just go for a really long walk with your dog. I dunno. It just seems like I stopped doing a lot of things that I loved, and things that made me happy in order to cram in a few more productive moments into my day, and I'm realizing now just how unhealthy that was, and how unhappy it made me. Even if it's just a few minutes here and there, I'm happy that I can actually work towards being happy again. =) (No more anxiety gum for me!) and I mean really, isn't just trying to be happy, and just being myself the most productive thing I could do in a day? I think so. =)